I just had to take a break from blogging but I am back and will blog about certain issues later, the kids are home and it is time for lunch so I will be back after lunch and they are settled watching a movie or something.

Welcome me back please!!

Happy mother’s day to all the mommies and mommies to be out there, I hope you all enjoy your day and be thankful for the children you have because I sure am. I have three of the most beautiful kids in this world and I am so proud to call myself their mommy. I thank the lord for letting me see yet another mother’s day and for having a great mommy as well. She’s healthy and I am so happy to have her in my life. So all of you out there appreciate your mom and show her the most respect.

Be lucky that you have a great mom.

Again, happy mother’s day to all mommies! I’ll post pictures of the kids and their gifts to me.

My whole life I have yearned for a father. I had a step dad and he was wonderful but I still yearned for my real father and he came in and out of my life but stayed mostly out. He took care of his other family. I have all these brothers and sisters that I barely know or have not grown up with. And that’s part of the reason why I am the way I am today.

It has taken a toll on me emotionally and mentally. I try forgiving him for the things he has said to me or done to me but it’s really really hard. Now he calls me wanting a daughter and father relationship. More broken promises? I think so. He was suppose to call me back but haven’t done so yet. So I am just sitting back and waiting for the time he calls me. He most likely won’t because this is a known pattern. He makes me promises and he breaks them each and everytime.

My kids are so lucky to have their dad all the time, Mike is a great father and I am glad he takes care of them. I don’t want my kids to be like me, without a real dad most of my life.

Another letter to dumb ass mothers.

Just because you’re an ignorant asshole does not mean you have to teach your son how to be an ignorant asshole. Break the cycle and teach your son how to be a respectful man. Walking onto someone else’s porch and not speaking is not only rude but ignorant and to tell someone that your son “Does not have to speak to anyone if he doesn’t want to.” Is ignorant because if any child or anyone for that matter steps onto my porch of walks into my house without speaking WILL LEAVE. Period.

Why teach your son how to be rude to adults? When I was growing up my grandma taught us that, when you walk into someone else’s home you speak. If not walk your ass back out. That’s just the same as online, if you join someone’s message board you do what, INTRODUCE YOURSELF.

I don’t care what no one says it’s ignorant, low class, and rude to walk onto someone else’ porch and sit your ignorant ass down without speaking. I wish one of my kids would try that shit. So to these young ass mothers that have this huge chip on your shoulders grow the fuck up you low life bitches. Because if your son acts like that and has this fucked up attitude he’s going to end up in a few places, 1. Jail or Prison. 2. Dead, because someone is gonna fuck him up, or 3. All alone because no one wants to deal with someone who is mean, rude, and stupid.

So please take this advice because it’s not cute, lets all over come this stereotype that all black men are losers, and do nothing but sell dope and get locked up. You all are not making the shit any better or any easier.

This is a very personal post that I decided to blog about because I have to let it out one way or another, if not I am sure I’ll use some poor defensive person as a punching bag so here goes.

Lately Mike and I have been arguing lately, like cats and dogs. We are always both on edge and whenever we speak to each other it’s with an attitude. He gets up, showers, eats, and leaves. Comes home eat, showers, plays his game, have sex with me, and then to bed. I guess I should be happy that we still have sex or “Fuck” from what he says. And it’s ok but the fire we once had is not there. The passion is gone.

Last night we got into it real big and I sort of blurted out that I need some time alone and I wanted him out. He stood there shocked and confused, I asked him “What is it? Another woman?” He claim there isn’t and he’s just “stressed” Right, I bet. But I still want him out of here for awhile, I need some time alone with just me and the kids. So today he’s suppose to be leaving and going to his brother’s house. I’ll see how that works because to make a long story short he doesn’t take that very well.

So I’ll update about what happens. Right now I am just staying to myself. No friends, no family, No one just me and my kids. To hell with everyone else at this moment.

I know I am a bit late but I have been busy working on one of my Fansites and dealing with offline issues that I really didn’t care to blog but a few days ago, Jem gave me a very helpful review. It was honest and very helpful and I plan to follow her advice and fix up the site a bit. A few visitors said the current layout was too bright, I am so sorry about that. I want my site to be easy on the eyes for everyone and work for everyone because this is not only for me but for visitors as well.

I also plan to add some more things to the visitor section and hopefully it’ll be something you guys can use but if not let me know and I’ll try my hardest to make something worth using.

I want to improve a lot of my designs, typing, and coding so do not hesitate to email me or comment on anything that’s out of place or misspelled I won’t bite your head off lol. But I wanted to say thanks one more time to Jem for the review.

If anyone is interested in reading the review you can do so Here sorry I am so late but like I said I was busy and lazy.

Now as of offline, things are the same. Nothing too exciting. The kids go to school everyday, we chill with each other, and I am still baby sitting. Even though I won’t have my darling niece today, I’m gonna miss her bad butt lol. So I won’t have her here to keep me company, I am crazy about that little girl. Who thought you can love someone else’s child as much as your own. I really do, Cha’Kyra (SHA-KI-RA) is the sweetest but baddest little girl lol, I baby sit her for my sister while she works and she’s the best. I love her to death.

The kids are doing good in school, Selena had a few set backs but she’s working on her attitude and her temper. Having ADHD is hard and I try to give her the benefit of the doubt but her last fit she had at school was over the top. So because of that she’s on punishment until the 9th of next month, Yeah I know right I bet everyone is like, dang but I had to teach her a lesson.

She cannot act like that in school and get away with it, I let her get away with way too much and now it’s time for some discipline. Oh and I decided to not spank my kids anymore, they are getting older and to be honest popping them on the butt does not work anymore and it’s hurting my little hands lol. But in stead they get a harsh punishment, which they hate. And so far that’s working because she’s going to school and acting like she got some sense.

So other than all that it’s pretty boring. All I do is study, work, work on my fan sites, cook, clean, entertain the kids, and watch tv. From 9 AM-4 PM I am alone and it’s quiet so I must enjoy this Friday with no kids and no noise for 7 hours. Even though I’ll miss my babies all day.

Well I better get off here, the girls are fighting about who’s gonna brush their teeth first. I just wanted to blog real fast I’ll work on a new layout later on today.

This is my very first picture post. I am too lazy to do pictures all the time but I am going to start posting random photos just for the fun of it so here goes. Check out my photos.

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Well from what I’ve read and heard today is CSS naked Day So I decided to participate and go naked today! And it’s really bothering me lol but I’ll stick it out in support of this day. So are you naked today?